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To The Petals in The Wind

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Summer.  Warm night.  Dinner and a Movie night.  Fun night.  Friend night.  Date night.

Wicked night.  Painful night.  Broken night.  Shattered night.  Dark night.  Winter forever.

The Past, God is healing the wounds.

Words are just words are just words…are just words.  NO, is a freaking two letter word.

Not, Loud enough?  Does it mean anything?

Does God hear me when I am hurting and healing?

Eyes Open, Eyes Close… Eyelashes flutter… Keep Them Shut!

Inhale, Exhale, Deep Breath…I can’t Breathe!

Did God intend for this to happen?

Is my Heart beating?  Am I alive or am I dead?

Life can only be found in Jesus, Right?

This cannot be happening.  This cannot be happening.  This cannot be happening.  This cannot be happening.  Is this really happening?  Really Happening???

I lost myself, I want to Trust you, Jesus.

No, it can’t be.

This cannot happen to me.

Jesus, do you really care about me that much?  To find me?

That face, stone cold face, full of anger face, rage face, everything wrong in that face!

I don’t understand.  Hurt people, Hurt people?

I am no longer here, I am hiding in the depths, A place I cannot escape, In the dungeon.  Little did I know that I would begin to feel safer in the dark, protecting what was left of me…but there was nothing worth protecting, nothing beautiful, nothing pure, nothing.

Do you restore everything?  I want to run with you in the beautiful flowers.

EMPTY

Learning to be Spirit-filled.

NUMB

It hurts to heal, but there is Freedom I am told on the other side.

 

To the petals in the wind… I am seeking Him & will only find true Freedom in Him.

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Not Going Anywhere

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A friend sent me a song today to listen to… It is called “Not Going Anywhere” by House on a Hill. Songs really speak to me. It is one of the ways that Jesus speaks to me.

He truly does speak.

This song in particular revealed to me that He does hear us even though we might feel or think that He doesn’t a lot of the time.

BUT… God does listen.

Here is what I am hearing from Him today.

  • Yes, I know it is hard for you to trust that my love or any love is safe.
  • He will never ever leave me.
  • Even when I unload my junk from life or the sins that I may have been caught up in… He is not going anywhere! He is staying right there with me, fighting with me and for me. He is here. No matter what. I might say…but. But, God is not leaving.
  • I am not perfect, BUT He is. I struggle with perfectionism and even trying to please other people. When I am me, raw, naked, just me… I am not perfect alone, But I am made perfect in Him alone.
  • I am still learning and growing… He is still there and not going anywhere.
  • When I can’t breathe, He is there and not going anywhere.
  • Even when I feel like I keep messing things up in life, He is there to redirect and teach me more about who He is and that I can trust Him.
  • In those moments of fear, He is there and saying, I’ve Got This, Fear is a Liar.

I may be messy, imperfect, fearful and afraid of loving and trusting…

Only He can make me whole.

He is NOT going anywhere and He Does NOT break promises.

Here is the Link to the song: https://binged.it/2FEHeJk

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