Open my eyes to see you.
Today was a hard day, Jesus.
I started the morning at your feet,
I asked the Holy Spirit to move,
I was playful and excited about the day,
I loved the beautiful sunrise,
It was so colorful,
Like a painting that I can only aspire to ever create,
God, sometimes I need things to slow down,
Just a little bit.
Today, I arrived safely to work,
I walked in with a big smile and I love saying good morning and let’s do this!
Then, the dark clouds come.
I keep praying,
My friend prayed with urgency for me,
And as I pondered big questions,
The warfare only got bigger and bigger,
I wanted everything to stop,
The warfare was swallowing me,
Then I broke,
I started crying,
I couldn’t stop crying,
Even in the storm, I could see you,
But all I could do was cry.
I used to be able to be a fortress, no tears, tough, nothing got to me,
Then life happened, ugly things happened,
I found you,
Learning to start from the beginning,
To learn how to cope and feel safe,
My hope is only in You.
I’m struggling Jesus.
I am who you say I am,
Not what the world says in their anger,
I pray to find rest and peace with you as I continue to find true freedom.
I desire to grow in you and be who you created me to be.
Broken to freedom,