The beckoning

Even in the turmoil,

Of the dark desolate place,

There is hope,

A light so bright,

That it beckons,

As if to extend warmth,

A hand,

A smile,

Silly me I must have forgotten my manners,

My furrowed brow says No,

My soul says yes,

My heart is healing slowly.

The truth,

Hope is rising,

More everyday,

To come alongside, Thank you,

My feet are worn and bloody,

My eyes are aching,

But there is hope,

He died for me,

He chose me,

He adopted me,

He is lifting my heart and my head.

He brings restoration,

He brings redemption,

But I struggle,

And He knows,

I squirm and throw a fit,

Because healing hurts,

And I’d rather not feel,

But feeling can only lead to understanding,

His compassion,

His love,

His Grace.

So, I lean into Him,

A little more each day.

May the lies stop hindering my steps.

Will you comfort me as I heal?

I would like that Jesus.

Intimacy

Finding the right words to say…

Often they sit softly on your lips…

Are they the right words?

Will they ever be?

The truth.

I am a Child of the King,

A princess.

He desires for an intimate relationship.

A relationship where there is freedom from insecurity and inadequacy because He makes you whole in Him.

Fighting for that spiritual intimacy that only He can bring…

Why am I fighting?

He is already here,

He is waiting and always ready to listen,

He cares about me,

Ever so deeply.

Keep seeking Him,

You can do it, He is right by your side.

Hand in hand,

We can run, skip, jump and walk with Him.

He’s even there in the silence.

He is there in the struggle,

Focus.

Be Brave and Trust Him,

He freaking loves you so much.

Broken to see You

Peace.

Breathe.

Open my eyes to see you.

Today was a hard day, Jesus.

Really hard.

I started the morning at your feet,

I asked the Holy Spirit to move,

I was playful and excited about the day,

I loved the beautiful sunrise,

It was so colorful,

Like a painting that I can only aspire to ever create,

God, sometimes I need things to slow down,

Just a little bit.

Today, I arrived safely to work,

I walked in with a big smile and I love saying good morning and let’s do this!

Then, the dark clouds come.

I keep praying,

I panic,

My friend prayed with urgency for me,

And as I pondered big questions,

The warfare only got bigger and bigger,

I wanted everything to stop,

The warfare was swallowing me,

Then I broke,

I started crying,

Ugly Tears,

My heart,

Hurt,

I couldn’t stop crying,

Even in the storm, I could see you,

But all I could do was cry.

I used to be able to be a fortress, no tears, tough, nothing got to me,

Then life happened, ugly things happened,

I broke,

I found you,

Learning to start from the beginning,

To learn how to cope and feel safe,

My hope is only in You.

I’m struggling Jesus.

I am who you say I am,

Not what the world says in their anger,

I pray to find rest and peace with you as I continue to find true freedom.

Breathe

Just Breathe

I desire to grow in you and be who you created me to be.

Broken to freedom,

Amen.

Always Learning

Today.

I thought I might crumble.

Met with uncertainty.

But lifted up by His hand.

Learning to listen and pray,

Being surrounded by His love,

Learning more about His character,

He is real and the Holy Spirit is there too,

Growing spiritually in His word,

Being real and honest,

Learning to learn can be tough,

But not impossible with Him,

I love Him,

He loves me,

I’m learning to trust,

He is ever so kind and patient,

Always learning,

Always Running to Him.

-KI

Roots To Beauty

When you are spending time thinking about how you can grow, become whole and flourish… Questions arise.

Where does this start?

What is needed for the foundation?

What is needed for nourishment?

Who is the source?

Can I handle this?

Who is in control?

Will I be able to contain my emotions?

How do I do my part?

The answer is….

Seek Him

What if I am scared?

What if I can’t breathe?

What if I shutdown?

What if I feel alone?

What if I’m drowning in fear?

What if I can’t sleep?

What if I struggle with faith?

What if I’m afraid to open up?

What if, I just can’t do it?

Seek Him

Darling…

He is with you,

He goes before you,

He holds you close,

He loves you dearly,

He will guide you if you let Him lead.

He is gentle,

He is nurturing your heart, mind and soul,

He knows and will not leave you,

He is patient and kind,

He is the King, the Savior, your Papa.

He is your coach and mentor,

He is your best friend,

He is your deepest love,

He is the one who you can share everything without fear,

He loves you so very much!

Seek Him

Trust Him and He will guide your paths,

Trust Him to restore and mend,

Trust Him to be all that He says He is,

Trust Him to lead you to healing,

Trust Him to meet all of those questions.

Seek Him

Listen child,

Dear one,

You are Loved deeply by Him,

He will never ever leave you.

Set your minds on things above, not on earthly things.
Colossians 3:2 CSB

In him you are also being built together for God’s dwelling in the Spirit.
Ephesians 2:22 CSB

Seek Him

Roots To Beauty…

He is making you new.

Keep trusting Him.

KI 💕