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Practice What You Preach

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Preach it brother and sister.

About who He is,

His character,

And how we reflect who we are in Him.

Allow Him in those deepest crevices…

In those places that hinder our walk.

If you preach it,

Show others you mean it.

If you say you drop everything to pray for someone, do it.

It hurts more when you witness those in leadership who do not walk the walk, but claim to do so.

Wake up!

God desires for us to follow Him but also to help others to grow in Him.

When you let your feelings block loving as God loves you… it hurts everyone.

I am learning this.

We are family…right?

I’m still learning about what that means.

If you love as God loves…then do it.

Stop and love.

Stop avoiding and ignoring those who are trying to learn and grow.

Stop the silent treatment.

All you are doing is hurting them more emotionally than you realize.

Stop hurting each other!

The Mighty Warrior

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You can’t see it, but you can feel it…

If you close your eyes, you can sense it…

His feathers on your face, soft, gentle, with affection…

He loves you more than you know. It is a love that surpasses all understanding.

How can He love so unconditionally? Because He is who He says His is…

He is the Mighty Warrior, the Prince of Peace, the True Vine, the Good Shepherd and the Light of the World.

He first loved us… He knit us together… He chose to die on the cross to give us direct access to the Father.

I want to go deeper and further with Jesus…

The racing heart, the cluttered mind, the deep deep hurt that cannot be undone…

Or so it seems…

You walk outside, the wind whips around you, in the storm, He is there.

He is there…He stiffens His arms to shield you and love you through it all.

He exclaims, Child put on my Father’s armor!

Even if it means that I must work through the pain to find freedom in Him.

I will move forward.

Breathe…

Inhale…Exhale….

Inhale…Exhale…

Inhale…Exhale…

His love is all that matters.

His embrace, His guidance, His Call.

I am His child.

Hold on tight, you must go on.

He is the Mighty Warrior, He’s got you.

-KI

She … and He …

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She runs

She skips

She sinks

She can’t breathe

She cries

She screams

She hides

She shuts down

She whispers

She doesn’t speak

She shouts

He gazes

She reaches

She looks

She runs

She hides

She peeks

She thinks

He beckons

She hides

She runs

She battles

She prays

She cries

She screams

She bleeds

He extends His arms

He calls

She cries

She desires

She hides

He is bigger

He fights for her

She prays

She runs

She cries

She hides

She seeks

She prays

She worships

She bends her knees

He smiles

He loves her

He comforts

She trusts

She accepts

She believes

She takes a giant leap

He embraces

He understands

He listens

He cares

He stays

She says Yes

He says I love you

He begins to heal

He is finding the broken pieces

She cries

He embraces

Together they work on healing and together they build on the spiritual transformation process.

She surrenders

She is being made new

She stops running

His Banner Over Me…. is Love.

To The Petals in The Wind

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Summer.  Warm night.  Dinner and a Movie night.  Fun night.  Friend night.  Date night.

Wicked night.  Painful night.  Broken night.  Shattered night.  Dark night.  Winter forever.

The Past, God is healing the wounds.

Words are just words are just words…are just words.  NO, is a freaking two letter word.

Not, Loud enough?  Does it mean anything?

Does God hear me when I am hurting and healing?

Eyes Open, Eyes Close… Eyelashes flutter… Keep Them Shut!

Inhale, Exhale, Deep Breath…I can’t Breathe!

Did God intend for this to happen?

Is my Heart beating?  Am I alive or am I dead?

Life can only be found in Jesus, Right?

This cannot be happening.  This cannot be happening.  This cannot be happening.  This cannot be happening.  Is this really happening?  Really Happening???

I lost myself, I want to Trust you, Jesus.

No, it can’t be.

This cannot happen to me.

Jesus, do you really care about me that much?  To find me?

That face, stone cold face, full of anger face, rage face, everything wrong in that face!

I don’t understand.  Hurt people, Hurt people?

I am no longer here, I am hiding in the depths, A place I cannot escape, In the dungeon.  Little did I know that I would begin to feel safer in the dark, protecting what was left of me…but there was nothing worth protecting, nothing beautiful, nothing pure, nothing.

Do you restore everything?  I want to run with you in the beautiful flowers.

EMPTY

Learning to be Spirit-filled.

NUMB

It hurts to heal, but there is Freedom I am told on the other side.

 

To the petals in the wind… I am seeking Him & will only find true Freedom in Him.

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In Brokenness, Walk it out with Him

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As I learn to Listen to God, I am reminded that He ultimately desires that I simply obey.

Obedience always seems like a place where I just want to run away or rebel against it. To just have what I want without working through the hard, damnable, life-draining muck. Who really wants to work through the stuff that hurts so much that no one knows the pain, but Him?

He knows.

He cares.

He loves unconditionally.

Jesus…

Do you see me? Can I trust you?

There is this abysmal place inside that I protect…the last pieces of my heart…what is left of it anyway.  I don’t even think it is a heart most days.  A vast place where pieces drift here and there.

Deep Breath

Years ago… it was shattered into a million pieces. Those pieces of pieces of pieces are missing to me. Lost, stolen, taken, hijacked without consent.

Dare I say that I believe that Jesus can rebuild my heart and make it new…

He heals the brokenhearted and bandages their wounds.

Psalms 147:3 CSB

To Obey… Dear Jesus… I’m trying to trust and let go!

I must not just hear, but obey.  He fights for me!

To surrender everything and lay all of it at your feet!

For me, the hardest pieces are accepting everything that has happened, acknowledging that I cannot fix all of it on my own, trusting that you are big enough and strong enough to hold onto me as the serious heart surgery must be done.

Stop Running Away!

He extends His arms…

He is patiently waiting for me to run to Him and obey.

Peace can only come after obedience.

Our Lord is great, vast in power; His understanding is infinite.

Psalms 147:5 CSB

Praying…

I seek you. I want you.

Please help me to feel safe.

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