It Doesn’t Matter… but it Does.

Current deep pain mixed with prior pain from the past can just hit you hard when you are a baby Christian.

Learning can be disrupted when there are clear misunderstandings…especially when you know you’ve been called by God to be part of something that is way bigger than yourself, but the other part of the called does not see it.

Spiritual moms and dads…They are part of a higher calling by God. Whether or not they respond to the call by God to help guide and be alongside those who need to learn…can impact the spiritual family foundation.

Worship, Prayer, Praise… that is the only answer. Leaving the call by God unanswered hurts deeply.

Continue to speak truth, allow the Lord to mend those hurt places and allow humility and grace.

Pray for those who also fight in the trenches with you and pray for the battles that occur everywhere.

May those who are also broken find that they can be made whole in Him.

Inner Chaos

Tears

Tidal waves

Hope

The light that breaks the darkness

The sun that shines through the black array of clouds.

A flicker to a bright flame.

It burns.

Crumbs of love

Swirling, intense feelings

Needing oxygen

Fighting to swim

Breathe

Unbalanced, losing footing

Dig deep

The intense emotional rush

Slamming into you, into everything

That crashing sound

The stillness that plateaus

Help me Jesus to rest in your arms.

She … and He …

She runs

She skips

She sinks

She can’t breathe

She cries

She screams

She hides

She shuts down

She whispers

She doesn’t speak

She shouts

He gazes

She reaches

She looks

She runs

She hides

She peeks

She thinks

He beckons

She hides

She runs

She battles

She prays

She cries

She screams

She bleeds

He extends His arms

He calls

She cries

She desires

She hides

He is bigger

He fights for her

She prays

She runs

She cries

She hides

She seeks

She prays

She worships

She bends her knees

He smiles

He loves her

He comforts

She trusts

She accepts

She believes

She takes a giant leap

He embraces

He understands

He listens

He cares

He stays

She says Yes

He says I love you

He begins to heal

He is finding the broken pieces

She cries

He embraces

Together they work on healing and together they build on the spiritual transformation process.

She surrenders

She is being made new

She stops running

His Banner Over Me…. is Love.

Two Left, Two Right and One in the Middle

For Fun…

In the land of virtual gaming including console and PC gaming…

You will find that there are short sentences of instructions or game chat that occurs between fireteam members or the 6v6 teams or whatever game format you are playing that can be quite hilarious at times or even frustrating when communicating live via mic.

Here are some examples of the banter between my friends and I hanging out in different games over time…

For you gamers out there… you will totally understand… trust me. Enjoy.

Why did he just message me saying nice camping? I mean it is a skill to not blink and shoot the first thing that comes in the cave.

Guys, guys… seriously… revive me. Yo, I dont care how many enemies are around…come revive me!

Seriously, 2-21 K/D…? Please throw your console out of the window.

Advice: You know… break it down and upgrade… The response: I have no legendary marks…. (sniffle).

Bathroom break….please. (In response)… put a claymore near your body and you have martyrdom on too… so you are good to go!

Team says in unison, don’t die you are the last guardian!… Titan reply… Look at me, I’m Mary Poppins!

(Game)…Access denied…(Player) There has to be a glitch around this.

Pew…pew…pew!

Hey look, I’m jumping on your head

Catch me if you can!… Then misses the turn and flies off the cliff… *facepalm*

I’m hiding, come find me… after 5 minutes of silence… there is laughter…duh, you can see my location on the map…we are in the same fireteam

Let’s dance. (Player likes to dance everywhere)

Jazz hands!!!

Player 1 yells: Keep fighting! (Everyone’s healthbars are blinking red)

Team: Ok we get it, Jesus loves you… Player 2: He loves you too! Player 3: Let’s dance!

I’m jumping on your head!

Team leader: 2 go left, 2 go right, I’ll protect the middle. And go. 3 minutes later…. why are you on the right, when you are supposed to be left? No, go left! G-o Left! Really?

Sneaky sneaky.

Seek Him in all that you do.

– KI