Tag: surrender

Press Into Him

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Hello Yeshua.

It’s me.

Again.

I desire more of you.

Please teach me how to press more into you.

I desire to be made whole.

I feel like there are so many pieces of me…

Missing.

As I seek you,

Earnestly,

You are here.

You will not leave me,

Because you dearly love me.

I struggle within,

Spiritual warfare?

I pray that I surrender more of myself,

To You.

And I pray that the places where I find joy,

Grow.

Being close to you,

Loving you,

My heart is syncing up to yours.

To Love others,

To Love the healing process,

To be used to help others to know you more.

I love you.

And you love me too.

Please help me to hear, see and follow your lead.

Keep holding my hand,

I’m holding yours.

Amen.

-KI

Swing Still

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Blank stare,

Emotions collide,

Cannot breathe,

Need to breathe,

Is this real?

Does it matter?

Who cares?

He cares about everything,

Trying to dig deeper,

He gathers the missing pieces,

Trying to produce sound,

He holds my hand,

I need someone to walk with us,

Praying and walking with Him,

Please listen and feel with me,

Help me to see Him,

So that I can be made whole.

I’m so tired of being broken,

So tired of the shame,

Just….breathe….

Stop shaking.

He is here.

I am 2 years old.

Be still and Swing.

Speak Up

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I woke up this morning in a box of shame,

I had nightmares again.

Will they ever stop?

And why is it that I never fight hard enough to get away?

And why do I always hear those words?

“Beautiful girl, come”.

Stop it!

Stop it!

Stop it!

Jesus, help.

Please teach me to speak up and fight.

– KI

Heart Believe

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When the tears fall and they won’t stop,

I often wonder if my Father in Heaven sees me?

Some days are harder than others.

When you want things to be amazing and carefree…but they are not.

Sometimes it feels easier to just sit alone in the corner,

Because my voice cannot be heard by others.

Here is the kicker…

Gratitude is so important.

And He is Here.

He is teaching me to rely on Him more.

He quiets the storm inside and He collects my tears.

He loves all of us so much.

Deep breath.

Jesus, I need you so much.

I desire healing…

Please wash over me.

I press into you with all that I am.

I seek you.

– KI

Learning to Breathe

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In the beginning, even if you don’t really know where that starts…

You feel as if the whole world is on top of you and all sights and sounds bombard your senses.

You can’t breathe.

You shut your eyes tightly, Pull your knees to your chest and Cover your ears.

Stop, just stop.

Can anyone see me?

Inviting someone… anyone into this space is to be used with caution. You do not want to be hurt anymore.

The desire is to flourish to be accepted for who you are, to be loved unconditionally and to make the biggest splash that you can…and to love others, to point them to…

Jesus

We desire a higher calling, a higher purpose, a place to belong and a place to call home.

Home… that is not here, but there are pieces here and there. People who embody and bear much fruit.

Even in those darkest moments, those places where you can’t breathe, He is there.

Learning to listen, to grow, to continually seek Him. It is the key to shutting out the lies and for finding victory.

Stop listening to the lies!

I am a sheep and He is the Good Shepherd.

He is your and my Pappa.

He longs for us to abandon all ties to this world and to follow Him.

To empty ourselves, so that He can come in and restore those broken places. To turn the jaggedness to a beautiful masterpiece.

When you feel trapped, alone, in the corner, in that dark place…He is there.

Breathe. Inhale…1…2…3…4…hold…1…2…Exhale…3…4…5…6…7…8.

Is it easy? No, but it is not meant to be easy. Our heavenly home is not here on this earth. We are citizens of Heaven.

Put on that armor of the Lord…

And remember He is with you…

Every single step of the journey.

Breathe.