Tag: Spirit-filled

Pine Lodge, Becoming Whole

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(To the Ladies of Pine Lodge, Timberline Knolls)

A place of change,

The girls in lodge,

A part of the

journey of healing.

Together they provided,

Strength, Wonder, Hope

And Honesty…

So many attributes of growth.

Pine Lodge provided,

A safe place for some,

Even though,

It is truly a safe place.

Many of us struggled,

And ran away

from ourselves,

Remembering trauma or dissociation or fear.

Trauma is real,

Not everything is life comes easily,

There is purpose in the learning,

It hurts,

It tears you apart,

Part of recovery,

Is putting the pieces together,

And fixing the shattered heart,

with Gold.

We are changed,

We are bold,

We are strong,

We are becoming whole.

One day at a time…

It is a beautiful process,

We all stop running,

We are filled with love,

To face new beginnings.

The goodness in the valleys and the mountains.

Brokenness,

Recovery,

Learning,

Becoming a sisterhood.

-KI-

The Journey & Letting Go

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(To the Ladies of Pine Lodge)

Code greens, Code searches, Chaos

I do not fully comprehend

Even I ran.

Dissociated,

And tried to hide in the forest

Because I thought

I was safer there.

Trauma and ED are real.

It is a part of our stories

At Pine Lodge.

Sometimes we do not know

what is in front of us.

We rise.

We climb.

We are challenged.

And we face the storm.

We are strong.

We are the Ladies of Pine Lodge

Summer/Fall 2020

Letting go…

Changing into a beautiful masterpiece.

Day by Day,

We give of ourselves

Minute by minute.

Take a deep breath,

Embrace the moment,

There is a beautiful world ahead of you!

We’ve got this!

No matter what,

The fight within and around us,

We are emptied,

Then filled with sweet love.

-KI-

Spirit Lead

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From the dark places,

The places that really hurt,

Stop staring at me,

I just want to hide,

But He has called me,

To step out of the darkness,

Into the light.

My skin hurts,

Do I still have a heart?

To numb, I try, but it doesn’t work.

The truth is that,

He loves me,

He loves me,

He loves me,

He loves me.

Even when I feel like He is so far away,

I try to push Him away,

He never stops working.

He knows me,

Even when I don’t know myself.

He’ll always be by my side.

Thank you.

Thank you even when I don’t get it.

I lay my head on your chest.

Please cover me.

You find me, right here, right now.

Peace Be Still.

Always Learning

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Today.

I thought I might crumble.

Met with uncertainty.

But lifted up by His hand.

Learning to listen and pray,

Being surrounded by His love,

Learning more about His character,

He is real and the Holy Spirit is there too,

Growing spiritually in His word,

Being real and honest,

Learning to learn can be tough,

But not impossible with Him,

I love Him,

He loves me,

I’m learning to trust,

He is ever so kind and patient,

Always learning,

Always Running to Him.

-KI

To The Petals in The Wind

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Summer.  Warm night.  Dinner and a Movie night.  Fun night.  Friend night.  Date night.

Wicked night.  Painful night.  Broken night.  Shattered night.  Dark night.  Winter forever.

The Past, God is healing the wounds.

Words are just words are just words…are just words.  NO, is a freaking two letter word.

Not, Loud enough?  Does it mean anything?

Does God hear me when I am hurting and healing?

Eyes Open, Eyes Close… Eyelashes flutter… Keep Them Shut!

Inhale, Exhale, Deep Breath…I can’t Breathe!

Did God intend for this to happen?

Is my Heart beating?  Am I alive or am I dead?

Life can only be found in Jesus, Right?

This cannot be happening.  This cannot be happening.  This cannot be happening.  This cannot be happening.  Is this really happening?  Really Happening???

I lost myself, I want to Trust you, Jesus.

No, it can’t be.

This cannot happen to me.

Jesus, do you really care about me that much?  To find me?

That face, stone cold face, full of anger face, rage face, everything wrong in that face!

I don’t understand.  Hurt people, Hurt people?

I am no longer here, I am hiding in the depths, A place I cannot escape, In the dungeon.  Little did I know that I would begin to feel safer in the dark, protecting what was left of me…but there was nothing worth protecting, nothing beautiful, nothing pure, nothing.

Do you restore everything?  I want to run with you in the beautiful flowers.

EMPTY

Learning to be Spirit-filled.

NUMB

It hurts to heal, but there is Freedom I am told on the other side.

 

To the petals in the wind… I am seeking Him & will only find true Freedom in Him.

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