Rage to Hope

The struggle,

The deep ache,

For hope,

For love,

For Him to keep you covered,

Keep focused baby girl,

Deep breath,

Jesus, help.

I need help.

I need the broken pieces to come back together,

To feel something better than the rage,

To be free and clean,

Will you sit with me?

Even in my mess?

Even with my anger?

I cannot do this alone.

Will you walk with me?

Can you hold my hand and wash my face?

Come in my secret place and love me?

Even if it’s dark,

Please help me to see more of you.

I want to know you more,

I long for that embrace of safety and trust.

I’m seeking you the best I know how to.

Please continue to teach me.

Please do not give up on me.

I see you watering the flowers,

I want to be there too.

It’s my hope and I’m learning.

Rage go away.

Peace Be Still

Intimacy

Finding the right words to say…

Often they sit softly on your lips…

Are they the right words?

Will they ever be?

The truth.

I am a Child of the King,

A princess.

He desires for an intimate relationship.

A relationship where there is freedom from insecurity and inadequacy because He makes you whole in Him.

Fighting for that spiritual intimacy that only He can bring…

Why am I fighting?

He is already here,

He is waiting and always ready to listen,

He cares about me,

Ever so deeply.

Keep seeking Him,

You can do it, He is right by your side.

Hand in hand,

We can run, skip, jump and walk with Him.

He’s even there in the silence.

He is there in the struggle,

Focus.

Be Brave and Trust Him,

He freaking loves you so much.

Let Him Work in You

We all are told that the Lord is our Father, our Prince of Peace, the Almighty Counselor

But

Do you let Him do what He needs to do in your life?

I know I struggle with complete surrender of those deep places of pain and hurt. But as my friend reminded me…He can fix it, if we let Him.

He is a gentleman and will not cross your boundaries unless you want Him to come in, He waits for you to…trust.

Trust, Trust, Trust.

When you feel like you can no longer keep fighting… keep going. He is with you, He is ready to help… let Him love you.

Let Him work in you. To fix the brokenness and to help protect your heart. To help you fight those deep hard battles, to fight those hard life decisions and to embrace and cover you in His arms.

He dearly loves you!

Trust Him.

Even if… Chaos Erupts… Be Still and Know.

Learning to let love grow inside of me.

Deep breath. Close my eyes, I pray to forgive…

Even if it feels like I am alone…

Even if my world feels like it is falling apart…shaken to my core.

Even if every single step hurts…

Even if I think I can’t breathe…

Even if no one knows…

Even if I feel like I don’t know which way to go or the whys behind the pain.

STOP! Guard my heart because Chaos Erupts if I don’t seek refuge in Him.

Every step forward seems like two steps backwards many days.

But, God… He is there in the deep.

He hears me when no one else is listening.

He is there, He will not leave, He loves me, He understands it all and in the Even Ifs… He is the way, the truth and the life.

I am learning to breathe…

He is fighting for me and I need to rest in that love and strength.

Wind in my hair, sun in my face, eyes wide open…Take another step…He is there!

As it is written, “Stop your fighting (Be Still) and know that I am God, exalted among the nations, exalted on the earth.”
Psalms 46:10 CSB

He is there, the mighty warrior and loving Father.

Find Joy and Dance in His presence!

Grab His hand and Run through the flowers.

He fights for me.